All For My Pleasure

I am so tired, so bored of everything! I don't want to bend over for the hope of love, thinking maybe he will want something more than just sex, whereas I know there's gonna be nothing more than just sex, so no more bending over for love, not putting my legs up, not getting on my knees, not putting my pants down..

Oh I will have sex! However, I will, from now on, know that they're all gonna be senseless sex. Well maybe it was wrong wording, there's always feelings when having sex, but what I mean is more like...No strings attached! All I care and want now is to touch his body, scratch it even when he is in me, when my legs are up I wanna hurt his back, I wanna bite his dick for my pleasure, push him off of me when I am done, not calling until I am horny again, because I know, those lips aren't only to kiss mines, they're to lick all over me just to turn me on, those eyes aren't looking for what's inside of my body, under my skin, those eyes are only looking at my body, I know those aren't the arms to hold me when I am down, those arms are only to move my head closer to his penis...

How stupid I was to think that maybe he wants to date me when he was using all the advantages of gravity on me, smelling nothing but beer, saying nothing but "Oh yeah, come on"...Come on? Come on what? You want me to turn into your fantasy porn star licking you from head to toes before I make out with your penis passionately so that it's ready to fuck me like an animal for hours? Oh yeah baby, I'm not coming on! I wanted a warm embrace, not the warm jerk you wanna spread all over me, I'm sorry but I am not taking your "love-shower"...But I will take a shower for my soul, I know the dirt of your pleasures will not go away that quickly, but I will do my best, all for my pleasure...First, I need to erase all those fingerprints on my body, heal the wounds in my soul...just like Melissa P. I will brush my hair until my curls become straight, until those scenes fade away, until my dreams can be replaced, until I can start again...