I Am In Charge

Hello the Dead Soldiers of Love!

This is my very first post and yet I'm way too ready to talk about this thing called "love" which also happens to be the murderer of many dreams and definitely expectations! FUCK! Okay, I don't want to sound vicious or anything from the very first post...However, I've failed many times in love..The good news is that I've learned something while I kept falling in love; I've learned how to fall out of it! Now, I am the King!

His name is...well I call him "7". I am not sure why exactly I call him "7" but somehow the number "7" sounds so strong like he is over me! And the number "7" sounds so sharp and it could injure or somehow hurt you, just like he did me! And come on now, doesn't number "7" sound sexy as well?! Ahh he's just so good..

I'm not gonna lie. "7" is NOT the only one! There are many more. Honestly, there ARE many more because "7" was never really there! He couldn't just learn how to hold my hand. So yes, he made the biggest house in my heart, with the family I created in it, and the garden where he and I would enjoy our coffees. It wasn't too difficult, you jerk! But I lost against him many times, couldn't reject him ever. It's pretty much like once you get raped and lose your virginity, there's no harm anymore if you keep on having sex. You're not gonna lose your virginity again! You're just gonna lose what's left in your soul and heart. I've been losing...I've kept on falling in and out of love.

Funny thing is that, no matter what, "7" has been my hero. Just like in that song of Eminem and Rihanna - Love the Way You Lie. It says "But you'll always be my hero even though you lost your mind."

...Now I am in charge!

I'm not on the last page of the story. So we'll see...But while we were turning many pages in the book we wrote, I grew up. I've become a man, a whore, a thief, an angel, and a liar. I shave my face everyday, put my lipstick on so I can leave something for the each lip I kiss. I was always a soldier who dies in a battle and in the end his country doesn't even win the battle; I die for nothing, nothing at all! But the roles are changing now..Interestingly, when I kept losing, somehow, I've become a survivor, moreover; I've become a King...King With The Lipstick..